Procrastination

Lately, I have been procrastinating a lot. Come to think of it. It was because I was trying to escape the reality that I will be graduating soon which is 9 days from this blog being written. However, now I have come to realization that, no matter how much I try to avoid the future it will definitely come. The future scares me, now I am starting to think about finding a job or pursuing master degree. If I am being honest, I wanted to be a master degree student so bad especially when it comes to drilling major. Although I am currently taking production major. (jokes on me!) I am hardly finding motivation to study for production. But when it comes to drilling, it is still hard not gonna lie. But I find it enjoyable. The knowledge that I gain  help me to understand what I learn during internship better.  

Okay I feel like I was deviated from my main topic but the thing is, when I feel like I started to loss the grip of possibility of becoming drilling engineer it crushes my soul. Like finally finding what I am passionate about but have to let go of it. It was painful. Alhamdulillah I was pre-selected to continue my master drilling but I need to wait the confirmation email to be call for interview. I has been 3 week already since I sent my resume. Regardless, I am still going to pray hard. The next drilling program will be January next year. Will not stop praying for it. BTW drilling master degree is the most expensive master degree offered in UTP. When I saw the fee I was shocked. So if I were ever given the opportunity, I am aiming nothing than first class. (manifesting).

Where I was again? Okay about coming back to reality. I probably should be writing my FDP report now. But I am taking a break. In shaa Allah I am aiming to finish it by tonight. Then I can focus on other thing. There's just so much thing that need to be done. Sis is tired but sis gonna get going. Definitely gonna post about FDP once its over, that was definitely one of the highlight of my final year. 

So as a conclusion, I just wanted to say that. When we feel scared or when I feel scared about something I have tendency to procrastinate. But that is not good you know. Because wether or not we doing thing that we need to do suceesfully or not. We are going to face the consequences, life will go on. If we are able to manage, the success of of our patience and preserverance will definitely be paid off in the long run. However, it is also not good to be so hard on yourself. What I am trying to practise for this semmester is to sincerely put my heart and soul into something I am working on. So whatever the outcome is, I will not have any regret cause I know for sure. I have given my best. Everything else I let Allah decide for me. I plan but Allah is the best planner.